In Memory of a Soldier and a Friend
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My heart is torn and my feelings are so broken inside,
my eyes so red and swollen, these tears I cannot hide.
God I miss you so much each and every day.
ever since the angels came that day and called you away.
Each time I look back on the memories I have of you,
I ask God why, wasn't there anything I could do?
I don't like this pain that I constantly feel,
I didn't want this to be true but I know that it's real.
You were a soldier and yes, duty was your call,
but I didn't want to hear that trumpet play the final call.
I tried so hard not to believe the words they told me, I even tried to block it all out,
I even tried to yell at God, but all I could do was barely shout.
Each day seems so distant, dreamlike, and unreal,
and I can't stop visiting all the pain that I feel.
Whenever I see our flag, I picture it draped on a soldier's coffin,
and it reminds me of you and all those who gave so often.
I try not to take anything for granted in each and every day,
and I hold our memories close to my heart where they will always stay.
Sometimes at night the dreams I have tease and haunt me,
of the visions of you here and what used to be.
I have even woke up calling your name,
It's like I caught myself slowly going insane.
I often stop and think about you,
but even I can't imagine all that you must have went through.
Why did it have to be you to leave?
All I do now is cry and grieve.
I pray that it was fast and the pain wasn't to much to bear,
As I lay awake, at your picture I stare.
I carry this picture I have of you where ever I may go,
so that people will understand the price you paid, so that they will all know.
I want to scream and shout and tell everyone why you aren't here today,
that it's not fair but war never is, at least that's what they say.
So why does it all have to end like this?
I just want you back, if only I had one wish.
Many of us have cried so many unstopable tears,
but that's just because we wanted you here.
I cry, I yell, and I shout all night at God that this just isn't right, it just isn't fair,
but it just seems like I am yelling at an empty sky with no one really there.
I try to live my life the best I can each day,
but it's always so hard when I feel this way.
So many soldiers have paid the ultimate price,
but I guess you always knew the possible sacrifce.
You were an amazing soldier, a strong warrior, a hero, and a true friend,
and I know that death is never a final end.
But anyone who knew you would agree that it's just so hard to say goodbye,
and I remember on the night that you died the sky was dark, even stars shone in the sky.
So much heartache and this constant lingering sorrow,
I don't always look to forward to waking up tommorow.
I can't stop asking why,
I can't stop these tears that I cry.
I don't know if I will ever truly understand,
but I do know that you are with God in that far away land.
No matter how many years may come to pass,
these memories of you will always last.
So please forgive me for not wanting to let you go,
but it's just because I cared for you so.
I am sorry things ended up this way,
and it's not fair that with your life, you had to pay.
Too many sacrifices have already been made,
in this realm, every soldier should have stayed.
All I can do now is hope and pray, and wait to see you again,
a Soldier, a Warrior, a True Hero, and a True Friend.
(In loving memory of a soldier and a friend)
Written by: Angela
December 2, 2004
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